Hello, dear readers!

For more than two years now, this blog has been asleep.... No updates, no new posts, zero, nada. In fact, I haven't logged in to this account for so long. Yeah, you guessed it right I forgot the password. Ssssh... it also took me quite some time to bring this account to life once again. Haha!

Looking back at my old posts, I saw a big change in me, in my language and the way I think, that is. I haven't told you yet that I started two other blogs after this, which, unfortunately died immediately for lack of content. Now, I made a vow to myself to go back to my first blog and seriously start anew. With this, I hope I would be able to drop and share with you again bits and pieces of learnings that I collect and treasure as I go through my amazing life experiences!

So enjoy and welcome me back to the blog realm! :)

An Easter Dilemma

This morning, I attended the Sunday service at Victory Christian Fellowship (at St. Thomas Square) which I consider my second home. Having been exposed to a new religion, a new way of life and a new set of doctrines about God and life, I became the person I didn’t imagine myself could be after just a few months of attending the prayer-worship services every Sunday at VCF. For those who do not know or have not heard about VCF, it’s actually one of the many sects of the religion Born Again Christian (although they prefer it to be called it a new way of life rather than a religion). You see, my boyfriend was the one who influenced me to become a Christian. And yes, I thank him deeply for that. Ever since I became a Christian, I learned to pray, worship God, make friends with other people, have the right disposition in life and most of all, put my whole faith in God. The reason why I brought this up is not because it’s Easter Sunday today nor do I just feel like being “holy” for the day. Well, the true reason is because, I’m having a dilemma.

After the service, I talked to my small group leader and asked her about her opinion on relationships (boyfriend-girlfriend). I was rather surprised when she said that she’s not yet ready nor was she thinking of having a boyfriend at the moment. Suddenly, my mind led me to thinking that she might be conservative and indeed, she is. Ok, not that I’m trying to mock her or insult her on being conservative but I was just not expecting that her view of marriage and relationships is very different from what I have known since I stepped at the legal age. She said that she plans to get married at the age of thirty (which pretty much is the same age I also prefer to get married) but she doesn’t plan to be in a relationship anytime soon. She’s only twenty-four which means that she still has six years of being single. However, what she meant by being single is quite literal---not being in a relationship at all for the next six years of her life. No boyfriends/ flings whatsoever. She only plans to have a boyfriend six months before her wedding which means that when she would finally decide to have a boyfriend, they should immediately get engaged and then get married right after six months. Now the problem here is, upon hearing that, it confused me because I already have a boyfriend a month before I became a Christian and I don’t know if it’s right to have a boyfriend even though you don’t plan to get married after 6 months, nor after a year or two. They say it’s advisable to remain single unless you already want to get married anytime soon. The explanation here is because being in a long term relationship (say in my case, six years, because my boyfriend and I plan to get married after six years) is that there’s a higher chance of you committing sin or being tempted by the devil to commit a sin related to sex if you’re in a long term relationship. I’m not sure if I explained that clearly but basically, that was the very essence of my dilemma. They said that most likely, God will tell me if my current boyfriend is already the person He really wants me to spend the rest of my life with, but I should also be open to the possibility that he might not yet be the one. Right now, I’m still confused but I’m not worried at all not because I don’t love my boyfriend (I do love him with all my heart…) but because I’m already leaving it up to God. For sure, he knows what is best for me and my boyfriend.

However, I just have one wish. That God will let me continue loving this very special person I have in my life right now. Yes, he might just be God’s instrument so I would become a Christian. He might just be God’s messenger so I would finally be awakened and start building a relationship with God. But, honestly… deep in my heart, I feel that he is the person whom God really wants me to share my life with.

"How you doin?"-- Mrs. Norbit

I've already posted one yet I haven't welcomed you to my realm... so a very warm helllooo and welcome! =) so "how you doin?"

I'm sure you guys are looking for a pretty fun read wherein you don't just get to entertain yourselves but also learn something new. Well, I hope I could bring both the fun and the knowledge. Quite dramatic huh? Well first, let me tell ya a little obvious fact about who I am. I'm emotional and childish and a born romantic so expect a lot of sharings and learnings coming from a 21-year old young lady whose personality is very much owed to her father (who's a melancholic yet a great joker) and whose self-identity is not yet fully defined (well, I'm still in search of my real identity like most of you guys) Note: When i say identity, I mean not sexual identity because I'm a 100% girl and I'm straight--no vices whatsoever, instead I mean... identity as a person (philosophically speaking)... alright? =) Don't also forget that I'm EMOtional... uhuh! like most girls are, I believe. So expect a lot of EMOtional stuff round here... as well as romantic stuff... So, just go over the page... scroll down and read.. enjoy and take with you the essential things that you may have found relevant to your life and relationships *winks*.

The Many Faces of a Girl

Ever seen the recent Sunsilk commercial where the model has managed to achieve more than a hundred different looks because of make up and change of hairstyles? I'm sure some of you do remember that. I did. And it's because I can relate very well to that girl... don't get me wrong though. I don't put make up nor do I change my hairstyle every so often. It's just that... maybe I'm one of the few people whose looks or "image" in the camera changes every time. I wish I could show you some of the pictures I have here, for you to see the big difference from one to the other. I'm not sure also if my looks changes everyday but the weird thing is that... some of the people attest to that. Like one day, I went to the gym and my friend Joy, said that she loved my tan and asked when I went swimming, with whom and where. Of course I was weirded out because I never went to the beach because I was busy in school. The next day, Joy said that I looked whiter compared the last time she had seen me. I don't know but I get this feeling that my skin color changes every day because some of the people I meet either says I look darker while some of them says I look whiter the next day... pretty weird huh? Am I a chameleon or what?

I also experience another weird thing every time I'm at the mall. This didn't happen just once or twice but many times already. Some perfect stranger will approach me and start asking, "Are you Margie?" or "Are you this or that person?". Hmm, and what's this that some of the girls I sit beside either in a jeep or a bus smile at me and whisper amongst themselves that I look like this other girl who they know? Just like some girls experience, I even had a stalker who kept on following me thinking that he knew me and was in fact calling me by this name I don't even remember now. I know... i know... it happens a lot in Cubao.

It's really a good thing though that my boyfriend is really concerned about my safety. Well, I guess he's right. There are just a lot of "bad apples" around the city waiting for their next victim. So girls like me, beware.